All things awesome... NOT XD

Actually I've been streaming for the past few days but the stream tonight felt like a job to me as there were more than the usual amount of people watching thanks to my friend who hosted and came to support me. I know I've said that I wanna live a low profile life and detested attention and what not but when I saw that 20 view count on my Twitch Channel, I felt excited and delighted. I can't deny that I like having the attention of people who enjoy my contents or simply put - fans. I would really love it if I have fans. That said, I'm a really contradicting person right HAHAHAHA. Oh Wells, as long as I'm enjoying myself XD That feeling after you end your stream when there's people watching, it's the feeling of emptiness. It's like one moment you were interacting with multiple people and suddenly you're alone now. It's not the best feeling in the world but that's a side effect I learned if you're ever / slightly immerse and attache

I'm back from my Japan, Osaka trip (12 - 17 March) and it took me forever to do this entry due to my almost immediate illness which followed up for a week after I'm back from Japan and procrastination of course. My videos from Japan has already been sorted out but I've been lazy at editing the videos XD Anyway this entry is to talk about what I've done during this trip. My main purpose of this trip was to visit my Japanese cousins with my family. The weather condition at Osaka, Japan was: 9 - 11 Degree Celcius Very Windy close to raining at times Day 1 We flew from Singapore to Japan via transit at Malaysia KLIA and the total flight time was around 12 hours in total. Once we landed, we head over to our hostel to leave our luggage and have a short break. After that we left to explore Umeda and we just wandered around aimlessly until I got lost and separated from my family. But all is good, I know my way back to our hostel as the subway system was easy to use

IT TOOK 1 HOUR ++ ALONE JUST TO TRANSFER THE VIDEO FILES FROM MY RECORDING DEVICE TO MY LAPTOP. WHYYYYYYYYYYYYY

Here a list of them: Taeyeon Her album title track "Fine" and her first full solo album! She's so fineeeeee ❤ Lovelyz WoW, Just wow. Gugudan With their new single "A Girl Like Me". Indeed where do we find girls like them. GFriend Their comeback trailer are released and they've gone everyone at their Fingertips.

Dear Readers, I don't know if it's the right time to confess to my crush but hanging out with her is difficult because of how busy she usually is. She has to take care of her house chores, work part time and tend to school stuff. Perfect wife material in my opinion xD But yea back to the point. Whenever I have the opportunity to go out with her, I don't have the f**king balls to confess to her and I don't want the atmosphere to become awkward all of a sudden. THE ATMOSPHERE IS ALREADY PRETTY AWKWARD as we hang out normally. I just met with her today for lunch and did some minor grocery shopping with her. She has this personality of an auntie already despite her age, which I found really cute. Most of the people around me are asking me to confess. Also I really treasure all the time I have with her, saddens me when we part but OBVIOUSLY I CAN'T SHOW IT RIGHT? I know I should definitely confess and after so many "Next Time" when I'm hanging out w